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(There were 1 - In the dreaming...)

[05 Feb 2006|10:01pm]
yeah, new lj eccentric_gypsy


adding all you guys soo add me back if you want to.

(There were 2 - In the dreaming...)

[05 Feb 2006|09:15pm]
This evening was all kinds of awesome.

(In the dreaming...)

[05 Feb 2006|01:16pm]
meme's of bordomCollapse )

still bored.

(There were 2 - In the dreaming...)

[04 Feb 2006|01:13am]
Insomnia, with Vlad looming over my shoulder.

(There were 4 - In the dreaming...)

[04 Feb 2006|12:44am]
I might be getting another job soon-ish. Gotta love it!


I still dont feel very good at the moment, but thats allll trivial.

mink vicera is not a pleasent sighe first thing in the morning.

(There were 29 - In the dreaming...)

WHOOO [01 Feb 2006|04:52pm]
I got a 12k a year scholarship to Millsaps!

Now I can really say im going!!

(There were 6 - In the dreaming...)

[31 Jan 2006|09:35pm]
Firefly is so deliciously delightful I dont think I can contain myself.

*addicted as of January 31, 2005*

Edit: 2006*

(There were 1 - In the dreaming...)

[29 Jan 2006|09:06pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Frustration! Silly Jeff.

Oh, and this fellow at lw apperently knows my brother. Fun and dandy.

And my lips are chapped, the true bane of my existence.

Sooo little to write aboot.

(There were 2 - In the dreaming...)

[28 Jan 2006|10:30pm]
Huzzah for drama convention! It was very mellow this year, and I really enjoyed that.

Oh and yeah. Jeff called me while I was up there. That boy does amuse me something fierce. Oh, speaking of little wars people, I just realized that they all know the hippies I know who know the Jews who know the... well, the list can go on and on and completely make many a circle. The point is, everyone I have hung out with in the past three years somehow knows one another. wft. I mean hugely different groups of friends. Weird. All of them are equally great to hang out with, but damn. I thought my world was connected already.

Oh, and I saw josh s. for the first time in a few years today. How random. 've did say he was coming, but meh. Random.

And I think I sent ten text messeges to people I dont talk to very often today. Note: Dont stick me outside by myself in a pensive mood. I get all nostalgic.

(There were 5 - In the dreaming...)

Five Weird Habits/ Things about me... [25 Jan 2006|04:20pm]
[ mood | silly ]

1) If something is beeping, or swinging back and forth, I count to three with the beeping or the swinging to get the rhythm before doing whatever action on the fourth beep and whatnot.

2) I have been known to talk like a drunken pirate at random points in the day, and make it seem perfectly natural.

3) I judge a male's worth on how interesting his hands look. Silly, I know.

4) After falling in love with a cd or piece of music, I listen to it untill I know, by heart, every little nuance of the piece. If that makes sense.

5) my bracelets must be near the same diameter on both wrists or no jewelry shall be worn. Symmetry on my wrists is required at all times.


(There were 1 - In the dreaming...)

[25 Jan 2006|05:26am]
[ mood | drained ]

I'm beginning to loath Biology II first thing in the goddamed moning!!

Oh, speaking of swearing, I was driving, and this person cut me off. Well, my windows were down and I was having a bad day. Lets just say I was a wee bit pissed. And was kinda loud. The guy who cut me off leaned out his window, looked at me, stared at me while I glared at him, then shook his head and laughed.


Why is it 5:30 in the morning? Hugs? Anyone?

(In the dreaming...)

[24 Jan 2006|10:06pm]
Far too much to think about. I'm sick and tired of almosts and maybes. Yes, my actions made me miss somethings and some people, but thats fine. That's in the past. A new outlook? Perhaps.

So much has been running around in my head recently. Entitely far too much. Nothing bad, just... a lot.

I cant express whats in my head right now. Soemthings are better left just unspoken for a time.

I need to stop listening to this cd...Collapse )

(There were 2 - In the dreaming...)

[23 Jan 2006|06:56pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]


I have quite a few things to do tonight, yet for some reason I have absoultly no desire to do any of them.

Damns, I forgot my bio note book with my webquest in it at school. Drat and double drat.

However, I did see three of my old middle school teachers at CC's today. It was a blast catching up to the old broads.

Poets are drumming
Keep heartbeats suspended
The smoke swirls up and then dies.

(There were 2 - In the dreaming...)

[22 Jan 2006|10:16pm]
[ mood | optimistic-ish ]


I have a feeling that this night will be slightly laced with insomina. Drat.

The whole programming my number into the phone of the Jeff worked very well. This came as something of a suprise, really.

My life is turning out to be quite the occurance of random events, and that is pretty cool. Im meeting more and more people, which is something i vastly enjoy in small doses.

Drama convention is this weekend! Cant wait! Rooming with three of the coolest people ever: Murphs, Cat, and the Buhler is making a return apperence. Hot diggity. And I cant wait to see and hang out with some people from BRHS. I love drama.

And Charles, I am very envious of your con-filled weekend!You must take to one next year. Please? I'm fun to road trip with, I swear!

I might have just dug a hole for that one.

This is all going on, yet somehow, Im sitting here, waiting for the bottom to drop out.
Hopefully Im taking enough steps to prevent that from happening.
I truly hate loose ends.

(In the dreaming...)

[22 Jan 2006|03:39pm]

The void totally consumed my cd's and thusly my sanity.

This had to have been the most random weekend ever. Sleep is my god.

(There were 28 - In the dreaming...)

[17 Jan 2006|06:13pm]

(There were 14 - In the dreaming...)

[16 Jan 2006|03:40am]

I really wish that I could launch off into another rant. Not really a rant, just another "laying out of the mind" if you wish. Wow, I back spaced that sentence a four times thinking a spot of dirt on my moniter was a period. Let's play "You Know Youre an Insomniac When..."

No no, thats just silly. What is also silly is the apperent fact that all apstrophes decide to be non-existent when Im typing. They sort of... poof. Like God, but minus the whole logic thing. Though it might be classified as pirate logic, or maybe even movie logic. Not quite sure on that one.

And that most depressing thing is, I dont have WoW on this computer (yes, spoiled american. -_-) and thusly I have reawoken this monster of a computing device. Did you know that the first objects to recieve the title of "computer" where intelligent folk who could do advanced calculations in thier heads? Who can do that these days? Oh, did I just use the word object to describe a person? Oh snap, I broke the number one feminist rule. Please, someone aske me if I really give a shit. No, give a fuck. Fuck is a much better word. More vulgar, a bit more gutteral. Makes me feel all mean on the inside.

And that is one thing that is utterly vile about being a me. Vast periods of utter apathy occur. Moral and emotional apathy usually. Whoops. Yet that is interspersed with varing degrees of accually caring about certain people in my life deeply and loathing the existence of others. Hey, at least Im being honest. Which is a novel idea, btw (<-- acronym love). Why the hell are people so afriad of being honest with each other? If you told half the people in the world what you accually thought of them at any given time... well.. things would be a whole lot simpler. Being totally honest with someone means I could be unafriad to profess a burning desire for someone in one breath, a undying love for another person, and vile hatred for another. What is up with everyone's fear of conflict? Is the whole of this society afraid of pissing someone off?

Yes. Goddamned it yes. As soon as most people even get the slightest whiff of confilct that hurry and try to completely earse all traces of it. You know that youve done it.

Oh and another thing that irks me about our "advanced" society and human race is that no one can take critisim. If you are doing something INSANELY STUPID and I tell you that it is and YOU DO IT ANYWAY and then I sit back and LAUGH at you, yo have noo reason to be mad. You are being, what is referred to in some societies, a dumbass. Get off your high moral horse. No one can fix another person. YOu are lying to yourself if you think otherwise. I dont understand idealists. I dont believe you can change the world if you set out to do it. The only people I believe that truely change the world are who dont set out to do so. They live the way they believe they should, and if it catches on, w00t. *coughreligioncough*.

I dont understand this concept of "one person can make a difference in the world." No you cant, you FUCKING cant. You can change your own miserable excuse of an existence, but you cant save a world. And what if your idea of "saving" (in both a religious and non-religous sense) something or someone is completely against what they believe as a person? What pre-ordained right do you have to do that to somone? Just because you think so? Just becuase your god thinks so? Because a soiceity thinks so? No. All you can do is change your own pathetic life, and hope that someone else around you might want to find what works for himself or herself.

Just remember, you are measely speak of steller material (which people in my physics calsdss cannot graps *facepalm*) on a planet that will most likely be consumed my its sun in less than five billion years, in a galaxy that will collide with andromdea galaxy around that same time and therefore truely whiping out all trace of the genetic mutation that is the human race. Belitting is it not? Good. Stop feeling so damned self important. You dont know everthing, you wont. Being self centered, pissy, bitchy, whiney, materialistic, decietful, idealistic, fantatic.. whatever! really doesnt matter in the long run because it gets in the way of the person you reallly are. I have been shown that over the break. So if Im ever rude to you, Im jsut being honest. And if you cant handle that, then grow up, or dont speak to me. Just stop lying to yourselves, stop hiding. Be what ever version of yourself that you can. Think Platos forms. Humanity is disgusting because of the trait of self deception. I hate it in me, I hate it in everyone I have every met. Edit: (there is only one person I have met that seems to be true to himself. See, evne with my rants there are exception(s). He knows who he is.)It is there, and it disgusts me.

there. You have my true feelings on a lot of things. Ignore it, critise it, pretend you know what you are talking about and diagnose me with some social disorder. I really dont give a shit.

Have fun.

Im going to go stare at the ceiling for the next few hours and then maybe go get drunk enough to accually sleep. OR I might just fall alseep. Or I might take a few nitequil.

I dont know. Its trivial.

But if you think about it, the only times we are truly honest with ourselves is when we dream.

Sweet dreams.

(There were 8 - In the dreaming...)

On the last entry.... [15 Jan 2006|11:15pm]
Frou Frou : Let GoCollapse )

(There were 2 - In the dreaming...)

"And she cried, 'Freedom!'" [15 Jan 2006|08:41pm]
I very mucly dislike those who insult my intelligence. They confuse my blatant apathy with ignorance, even after I have clearly proved otherwise. This is a quite irk-some matter that I take to heart. Be forwarned; it provokes violence.

And on another note, I find myself looking too deeply into something I'm not sure if I should. Should I expect more than I'm letting on? For some reason I only forsee dissapointment. I just unsure about a lot of things, and I (and most of you) know how many things I done that have been stupid and letting myself dove head first into something again might prove to have equally dissapointing results. That doesn't mean I won't enjoy being an idiot. But then there is the possibility that I'm just being unduely cynical and pessimistic and as long as I know where I stand in everything...I guess my sanity will remain intact.

Its the whole letting go thing.

It just doesn't happen.

Yes, I know these are vague, blanket statements. Just deal with them, for my own sanity, which is getting more and more questionable as time inebitably progresses.

(There were 7 - In the dreaming...)

Failure... [11 Jan 2006|10:05pm]
Apperently, I rolled a 1 when i was brushing my hair...



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